“I slept and dreamt that life was joy.
I awoke and saw that life was service.
I acted and behold, service was joy.”
R. Tagore
I deeply value the timeless truth that Spirit is in everything. Less me, more Spirit is my Service vow.
I value truths our soul-Selves, Earth-bodies, wise-hearts reveal. I value integrity and depth-listening. Meaning-filled reflections.
The living presence, I am - sparks - inspires - ignites an aware presence in Others. It is a mysterious phenomena that can and does enter and grace SoulTonic sessions.
Some world-server colleagues call me an ‘igniter’. Pure heart’s Love is a Fire, yes? Yes… I do my very best to serve with and from pure heart.
Abiding as a compassionate presence, while honoring connectivity with Greater Presence, on y/our behalf, is my precious life’s J.O.B.: Joy of Being.
Gaia's SpiritMama a.k.a. Antoinette, I am a heart-led conduit for Spirit. HereNow, to co-creatively effect and aid humanity’s consciousness expansion. Individual Soul’s involution.Humanity’s conscious evolution.
A Pure Love-accelerant, Spirit-receptor.conduit.transmitter.conductress, I value Inclusive-Compassion. Interconnectivity. Receptivity. Reciprocity. Grateful to embody wisdom-heart’s Flow.
68+Earth-years seasoned. University-educated. CoActive Life Coach trained. Embodied Mentor. Purpose Guide Institute:Certified Purpose Guide ™ IFS Institute: IFSI Course Intensive C-o-C: March 2025. Parts-work & trauma-healing informed.
I passionately walk the warrior.teacher.healer.visionary Four-Fold Way paths (ref: Angeles Arrien).
SoulTonic’s Origin Story
Life’s Invitations
“Welcome back miracle child…”, a hospital staff member's familiar voice spoke to me. Heavily medicated and out of it, I didn’t understand. I wouldn’t, nor would I speak or see clearing for months. Or read, write or walk or feed myself. I was an infant in her 51 year old body.
Cynthia’s Acute Rehab bedside greeting befuddled me. Unaware I was a post-ICU two-month coma patient, where the doctor’s 5-7% chance of living had been outlived. Beloveds’ “farewell, Antoinette” visits - a complete mystery.
Full-body recovery from strokes, numerous medical complications and a debilitating 5-month hospitalization were my first 'learning to live again’ challenges. Cooperative courage grew as did my brain’s function and body’s atrophied muscles while I worked with numerous hospital therapists. Spiritual counselor, D’vorah Epstein was a cherished lifeline.
Nathan, a dear friend and film industry colleague, reflected back, “yeah Mz A, what you had come through - you weren't going to just roll over and play dead.” I was extremely eager to live. The question of what I was meant to do while living - had to wait. Therapies and continued healing were paramount.
TrueSelf Reclamation journey
Life’s second chance seemed related to the spiritual and personal-growth I'd embraced since my early-teens. Now here I was at 51, a spiritual metaphysics practitioner, learning how to function in a human body. Spirit felt palpable - more easily heard within this delicately vulnerable state.
Why did U revive me?, I asked Creator. Silence responded.
A surrendered acceptance – that a 24-year film industry career was over - grew my receptiveness - once released from the hospital.
“What is mine to do?”, was my prayerful Self-inquiry - once in-home therapies ended. As my brain's reboot progressed – intuitive guidance began flowing in - spontaneously. Like an open channel to Higher guidance was being bestowed.
Peacefully home alone, months later, I heard: “Global healing-artist community”. I stood very still, mildly surprised to hear such a clear, silently-worded message. Gratitude’s tingles were felt - throughout my body. A direct Message, a clear pointer was gratefully received.
“Healer, heal thy Self.”
“Where attention goes, energy flows” guided my purposeful quester’s baby steps. Previously unmet-Parts, sub-personalities - in my body-mind’s makeup - ones that had nearly killed my/our body - were being loved: seen, heard and compassionately dialogued with daily. Understood and held while they/we cried tears for fears never acknowledged before.
A shamanic Self-healing path began revealing itself. Furthering my spirit-mind-body’s integrative healing processes - exponentially.
This innate heart-led ‘medicine’- also began resolving an adult-onset auto-immune dis-ease.
CTI’S CoActive Coach training and authoring Empowered Living’s TrueSelf reclamation’s guidebook were curatively creative steps. Crossroad choices my global healing artist’s aspirations were asking me to trust. Self-promoting sponsorship paused for years as deepening Self-understanding and soul-fragment retrievals were honored.
Whole enough, in my Self-estimation, I entered a realm of perpetual soul-preneaur start-ups. Each Service clarified further aspects of what I was actually here for in this lifetime. How I am to serve.
“R e l a x…In-tu-it…”
Eleven years unfolded until my soul’s calling showed itself. During a solo wilderness vigil - held in blustery Pacific Northwest rain - I met my dynamic purpose.
Sitting on fecund ground, under my half-day vigil’s rain tarp, I surrendered. Crying, praying, dancing, writing. Listening, communing with Spirit helpers and Wild Kin. When in an instant Nature revealed a symbolic message. It rested within my sacred Sit Spot’s inner Circle of nature offerings. It was a clear revelation. Intimately weaved within my life's ongoing her-story.
Within the vigil’s spaciousness and my heightened gratitude state - several more chilly hours passed. Then a second wild Messenger flew in on the wind. Literally landed its transformative tale at my boot-warmed feet. Elated and stunned, I cried tears of joyful acceptance. Intuitively knowing my Gaia-ordained dharma-path had been confirmed. I reverently rejoiced. Offered thankful prayers to Great Spirit and MamaGaia.
“R e l a x…In-tu-it”, was Mystery’s final whisper - as I held my vigil’s closing ceremonies. Walking down a log-crossed wilderness path - heading home.
Dying to prove worthiness had ended when I was brought back to life. Living to be in meaningful service – honor the second chance I’d been gifted – had eventually led me to Purpose Guides Institute’s Purpose Discovery Program after I’d solo-searched for years.
A 40+ year immersion in healing/wholing modalities - was ripe for fruition when I entered PGI’s global PDP intensive. Dharma’s divine directive – the sweet seeds dropped before me during the experiential program’s “Soul Quest” weekend were being faithfully honored. My wilderness vigil’s revelatory experiences ended lostness. Quickened my visionary's integrative acceptance capacity.
I deeply surrendered to receiving enhanced intuitive messaging. To understand via deep listening and somatic sense abilities the profound Nature encounters I’d been gifted.
I remained in my PGI cohort for Guide training and became a certified Purpose Guide ™. Relishing the mutual Coheart blessings - guiding beloved Clients - bestows.
Spirit’s post-NDE’s invisible words are now my reality. Collaborative within a global healing heArtists community, Spirit’s pointers guided me here to provide SoulTonic Sanctuary. Offfer Services for earnest soul-journeyers. Perpetually reSourced by Great Spirit and our Earth Mother.
An Invitation
If you are ready to be powerfully supported - let's schedule a co-interview Discovery session. Find out if we are meant to work together. Explore which SoulTonic series is a good match for you and your intentional soul-journeying.